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I was in tears over lunch today. Sleep deprived. Exhausted. Husbandless for the day & night again & my lunch date was too. Our husbands work together & we just…empathized. Two, by yourself, is hard. & neither of us are very good at asking for help. Nor do we have family in town. We just go go go…until we cry. & that’s just what happens sometimes.
This week life just didn’t work.
So it was time to change.
I barely get 20 minutes during the day to myself with two babies sleeping & as I have said before, I need that downtime to recharge. I was trying to deal with my lack of alone time by finding a screen to bury my nose in to ignore the chaos around me and I was failing. So it hit me. Delete facebook from my iPhone. Check it if I feel so inclined. It is a major time sucker and I was using it to whine. Not productive. Not healthy. I feel like a better mama already. & I have real life friends I can hug & call and that just feels a million times better than anything a screen can give me sometimes. So please know any posts on the wall I’ll get to when I can. My computer is just at the bottom of my priority list right now because 15 weeks later, I am totally still in survival mode. & definitely not sleeping much.
& I am trying to let it go.
Let go of the guilt. Let go of the pressure. Let go of the internet.
Just a little bit.
This is just a season.
(& that beautiful print is by Studio Mela…& will soon be in that frame, not just taped to it. ;) )
& Project 52 is off to a very collaborative start! If you’d like to join in–it’s not too late. Here’s everything you need to know about
& those of you who are linking up (please let me know if you need to be edited/added!):
Adventures in Mommyhood • Aubrey My Love • Blossoms & Vintage • Bugs & Boo-Boos • Candice Craves • Caynay Photography • Christina’s Project 52 • Chronicles of KT • Claire Jane • The Crain’s Nest • Dana Moran Photography • The Daulton Dabbler • Englexas • Everything Eatherton • Fairy Wings & Dinosaurs • Finding Joy • Firecracker Mama • Freckled Pink • From Stanwood to Seoul • Gin & Juice Boxes • Heather Marie Portraits • Ici & La • It’s a Graham Life • It’s a Strange & Lovely Ride • Kate L Photography • Keeping up with the Carters • Kim Percival Photography • Living for Love • Lizzi Photography • Mahina & Lucas • Mama Bethany • McLain Padilla Photography • Mist Moments • Memories by Mere • Moments & Impressions • The Mommyhood Memos • Moo with Me • Moxie Made • My Tots Travel • Navigating the Mothership • Nicole Dina Photography • Oh the Places We’ll Go • Our Baby Behr • Our Splendid Little Life • Phreckle Face Photography • Quiet Footsteps •Rachel Gray Photography • The Robersons • Shades of Bliss • Shutter Mama Blog • Side of the Table • Simply Us • Snaps of Our Life • Squamish Baby • The Todd’s • We Aren’t Scared of Sugar • We’re Better Together • Wicked Kate • Wokabout • Z as in Zebra